There’s something deeply personal I want to share, something that’s greatly shaped the way I experience motherhood. Exactly one year before becoming pregnant with my first child, my mom passed away unexpectedly. Her death was sudden and traumatic, and the grief I felt was overwhelming. The pain of losing her—and everything she meant to me—still lingers. And it’s something I reflect on often. Since the earliest days without my mom, I couldn’t help but consider how different things would be if she were still here. She would have been so involved in my life as a mom—offering her wisdom, her love, and her joy (and definitely an occasional critique :P). But even though these thoughts still bring some pain, I also recognize that I’ve channeled my grief into something beautiful in my own journey. Yes, there will always be layers of heartbreak. Part of me will forever grieve what my mom is missing out on (and what I am missing out on), knowing that neither of us get to experience this chapter the way we’d imagined. But there has been joy as well. My mom was such a huge part of my life. We talked every day, and together, we often wondered about what this stage of our lives would look like. Where would I live? How many kids would I have? Would they look like me or Matt? If we lived near each other, we guessed that she would be popping over often to help or just hang out. But after her passing, I had to face the reality that she wouldn’t be here to find out what happens next. This made me more aware than ever of how fleeting life is. It also sparked a deep sadness about what my children might experience if I’m not here for them when they need me most. That thought has often triggered anxiety and a new kind of pressure in me—the pressure to "get it right," out of fear that I won’t have enough time with my own kids. I’ve worked through these feelings with my therapist, and what I’ve learned is that while my mom isn’t physically here, her love continues to guide me. I find myself giving my children the same love, warmth, and energy she gave me—while also consciously making changes where I can. I often reflect on our relationship and realize there are things I wish we could’ve talked about—things I wish I could repair or understand better. While she was an amazing mom, I now recognize there were emotions that she carried that I didn’t fully understand until I became a mother myself. Her upbringing was so different from mine. She was one of eight children and only spoke Spanish when she moved here from Puerto Rico as a child. She and her siblings navigated their new world with parents that couldn't fully communicate with teachers and peers. Her early experiences shaped her in ways that I’m only beginning to understand. Despite the challenges she faced, she instilled in me a deep sense of gratitude for family (given or chosen)—something that remains at the heart of how I approach motherhood. One of the most unexpected parts of this journey has been gaining a new perspective on my mom’s love. For years, I couldn’t quite grasp why she did or said certain things. But now, as a mother, I’m seeing the sacrifices she made, the worries she carried, and the depth of love she poured into me—even when I couldn't fully see it at the time. It’s a bittersweet realization, though, because I can’t share this newfound understanding with her. I don’t even know if other women talk about these things with their moms, but I know my mom and I would have, and I think I'll always grieve for that. Oh, to be able to say "Mom, I'm sorry about those teen and young adult years!" and "Thank you for all of it." Reflecting on my relationship with my mom has become an interest of mine. It’s part of what drives my work as a parent coach. But navigating grief while becoming a mother, especially when you can’t share that early part of the journey with the one person who would’ve understood you best, has been an unexpected and strange experience. It’s beautiful and painful at the same time, and I’m still figuring out how to live in that tension. If you’re going through something similar—whether by circumstance or by choice—I want you to know that you’re not alone. It can feel incredibly isolating not having your own mom by your side when you’re stepping into motherhood. But I see you. I understand the weight of this journey, and I know you're doing your best. Motherhood, just like grief, is something we each navigate in unique ways. It’s okay to feel both sadness and joy, to miss what’s gone while embracing what’s here. I know we would want the same for our own children.

As parents, we all want to raise kids who are kind, responsible, and resilient. But let's be honest: navigating the ups and downs of parenting can sometimes feel like we're walking a tightrope between love and frustration. When our kids make mistakes (and they WILL make mistakes), it's easy to feel that we need to "fix" their behavior immediately. And often, we default to punishment as a way to get them to "learn their lesson." But what if I told you there's a better way--one that helps build trust, keeps your emotional connection intact, and actually teaches your kids the life skills they need to do better next time? This is where discipline comes in. Discipline vs. Punishment: What's the Difference? Let's start with what discipline really means. The root of the word comes from the Latin word discipulus , meaning "to learn," and disciplina, "to teach." Discipline is about guiding, teaching, and helping our children develop the emotional and social skills they need to make better choices. It's not about controlling or punishing them-- it's about empowering them to understand their mistakes and grow from them. Punishment, on the other hand, often relies on blame, shame, and making our kids feel badly for what they've done. While it might give us an immediate sense of control, punishment typically results in disconnection, fear, and confusion. It doesn't teach our kids what to do next time , and often leaves them feeling unloved and misunderstood. And in the long run, punishment can erode the influence we have as parents. I mean, who actually wants to listen to someone who makes them feel bad? I know I don't! Why Discipline Builds Connection When we approach discipline from a place of teaching, we remain emotionally connected to our kids. We show them that when they make mistakes, we're not here to judge them, but we're here to help them navigate their feelings and learn from their experience. We get to model empathy, patience, and kindness--traits we want our children to carry with them throughout their lives. For example, imagine your child loses their temper and says something hurtful to a sibling. Instead of immediately sending them to their room or giving them a timeout (which are forms of punishment!), discipline invites us to pause, reflect, and respond thoughtfully. In these moments, it's important to remind ourselves that our child's misbehavior is likely a sign of a missing life skill, like emotional regulation or problem-solving. So, rather than punishing them for not getting it right, we can teach them how to handle their emotions in a more constructive, less harmful way. When our kids make mistakes, they don't need to feel ashamed--they need help learning what went wrong and how they can do better next time. Let's say your child has a hard time turning off their electronics when you ask. Punishment might look like immediately taking their device away for a week "because they didn't listen!" But is this really teaching them the underlying lesson? Likely not! A more effective approach would be to set a logical consequence--maybe limiting screen time until they can demonstrate that they can manage transitions more smoothly. This approach teaches the skill of self-regulation, which is far more valuable in the long run than simply imposing a penalty. Similarly, if your child struggles to use kind words, punishing them with something arbitrary like denying them dessert is not addressing the root issue. Discipline, however, allows us to be curious and dig deeper. So when everyone's calm, you might chat with your child about what's going on for them-- why they're struggling with kindness and what they can do differently next time. This builds emotional intelligence and empathy, both of which are essential for healthy relationships. A Safe and Secure Environment One of the most important aspects of discipline is that it helps our children feel safe and secure in our presence. Kids need to know that, no matter what, they can come to us with their mistakes, their challenges, and their big emotions WITHOUT FEAR of being rejected or punished. We get to show our children that we are their safe space and are here to help them through life's challenges, not to add to their stress. And when they feel safe, they are far more likely to listen, cooperate, and make better choices. So, What About Consequences? I want to be clear: discipline doesn't mean there are no consequences. Sometimes consequences are necessary to teach kids that their actions have an impact. But consequences should be logical and related to their behavior, not arbitrary or punitive. For example, if your child refuses to do their homework, a natural consequence might be that they lose some screen time that day or have to miss out on something they had planned on doing because they didn't prioritize their responsibilities. This teaches them the importance of time management and accountability ( remember, we're aiming to teach the missing life skills! ). But consequences should always be paired with a learning moment. Rather than focusing on the "punishment," we should also focus on why the behavior happened, how it could have been handled differently, and what skills they can develop for next time. The Power of Discipline At the end of the day, discipline is about building a relationship based on mutual respect, understanding, and growth. It's not about power struggles or creating fear-- it's about guiding children in ways that help them become the best version of themselves. When we approach discipline with kindness and empathy, we give our kids the tools they need to handle challenges and make better choices. And most importantly, we strengthen the emotional bond between us, creating a family dynamic where everyone feels safe, heard, and supported. So, next time your child makes a mistake or struggles with their behavior, remember that discipline is the path to connection. And connection is the path to cooperation. Instead of punishment, let's model, teach, and encourage them. Our kids will thank us for it--now and in the years to come. P.S. - Dear Reader - If this all seems backwards to you and you can't imagine parenting in this way, I get it! We carry the patterns that we experienced as kids with us into our own parenting, and it makes sense if this doesn't seem "right" to you. I imagine you may have been parented with punishments, shame, or blame--and those things stay with us as we become adults. If you're curious about any of this or are wondering what could be getting in the way of your connections with your own kids (and yourself!), I'm here to walk alongside you as you break down any barriers or beliefs that may be holding you back. AND I'm proud of you for even reading this! You are already an incredible parent and I have so much hope and gratitude for you.